Trust.

;It simply means "firm belief in the reliability, truth, or ability of someone or something."

At least, that's according to Google. or anywhere else. 

In my context, it is more than just that definition. To me, trust brings an important meaning in life. It somehow interlinks with any other things - Humans, feelings, situations, you and I. 

It is not something that I could have taken it less seriously. In fact, the word plays such an important role to me that when something happens, it can just crumple me in seconds.  

I chose to believe and to trust different people who have come in and out of my life. These almost lead me to nowhere. Nowhere but the feeling of getting hurt, paranoia and negativity. 

Then again, it allowed me to learn from the beginning whenever it's coming to an end. I would keep telling myself to keep the faith, this is just another test, a random challenge to see how far we can go in life. 

When I finally gathered all the courage to take the steps again, the whole scenario will hit a replay button. Then, I break apart. 

I question myself; How tough would it be to be a little more honest, to learn how to say no, to remember what you've told someone else and not act otherwise? Perhaps, its the situation around you that changes you? I tried to understand what may come. Creating the answers to all of the questions. 

Unfortunately, I failed. 

I failed to see from a third person's perspective, to be in the person's shoes, to judge what I could have done that the other couldn't. Am I really this insecure or I'm too self-absorbed with myself?

Was I really wrong to choose to trust someone and putting all of my faith on a gambling line? Was I so blind to see for myself that nobody can be trusted except yourself, even if words sounded promising?

Oh, silly, silly me. To think that there will be someone trustworthy out there somewhere. What a fool. 

Perhaps, it's time to wake up from the sweet nothings and dive back into reality, where you clearly know that words are merely words. 

They mean nothing, not even if priorities have been set straight a long time ago. 

As for this, it will serve as a reminder to self, always. 

CNY 2015.

CNY is finally over and for the past 15 days of the celebration, we didn't really do much this year since we can't celebrate due to the passing of my late grandma last year. Well, nonetheless, we did have reunion dinners, playing cards and mahjong of course! :p

So just a quick recap of what I've done, my favourite day of the year would be CNY eve with the home-cooked food by my grandpa! :D

Yeap, all prepared by my grandpa. 

On the first day of CNY, went to Tian Hou temple for prayers and when I got back home, there was a surprise in my handbag.

This was in my bag, out of nowhere and till now, it remains a mystery. I would say, luck has come! So to whoever who gave this to me, I wish you luck too! :D

On the second day, it was a gathering at my aunt's place and again, home-cooked food by my grandpa for more than 40 people! Seriously, so awesome lah. 

Family. 

On the third day, it was another gathering just within the few elderly in the family. :) 

At Chuai Heng Restaurant in KL with the extended family.

Of course, must meet up with the *coughs*Emolutors*coughs*! My Advanced Diploma gang who spent almost everyday together last time. :)

Sushi Zanmai's Yee Sang for 7 people. 

The almost complete "Emolutors" without Harry. Pfft. 

Aside from them, of course must have the SS Gang's annual dinner gathering! Not a big group this year, but still managed to get 11 pax for this! 

The Lou Sang session! 

Only half of the SS gang here. The remaining were too busy/away. Oh well! 

Last but not least, attended Media Prima's Open House with my team leader on the last day of CNY!

A shot of my boss and I. :) 

It was overall a good one despite there weren't any house hopping this year. Whatever it is, cheers to a good year ahead and hope you had a joyous celebration too! 

Okay, back to work bai!