My (Unpleasant) Experience at JPJ Bandar Sri Permaisuri.

Haven't been updating much these two weeks because am a little caught up with work and enjoying life but today, I feel there is a need for me to talk about this no matter how late it is because it still pisses me off until now gaddammit.

So, I was at JPJ Bandar Sri Permaisuri in the afternoon earlier today and upon arrival, the first thing that happened was the malfunction ticket machine. It wasn't an issue because luckily they had someone stationed at the counter, whom by the way, had no smiles on her face at all though you smiled at her.

Okay fine. I figured must be because the hot weather that's killing everyone's mood and maybe their air-cond wasn't like York Cooling King, so I forgave her.

Then, I had to wait for 85 people before it's my turn. Scouted for a seat and ohmygawd, out of 13 counters, only half of the counters are open like WTF? By then, I was already thinking of a few excuses for this scenario - gone for lunch, lack of staff (I don't even know why though there are so many people who needs a job these days), gone to the toilet to do some business etc.

So, I waited.. and waited.. in a stuffy and packed place.

50 minutes later... 7 people left before me.

AND THEN SURPRISE. SYSTEM DOWN WHADDAPHUCK.

Okay lah, fine. I try to understand. System is not upgraded cause got no money to do so, hence, will go bonkers a little.

Best part was that they started asking people to line up and it's not even according to numbers. Just based on why you're there i.e. renew road tax or licenses. -__-

Since the numbering system is gone, it was more of a first come first serve basis / luck game. Ended up have to wait for another 15-20 minutes just to renew my license.

They even made it compulsory to buy the card holder that is costs RM 1. Actually, I'm not even sure if it's compulsory because when I asked the lady, the way she answered was a little uncertain. I don't even need it but have to buy lor since she said it's compulsory.

THAT'S NOT IT. During my observation, I see some of them really rude to the public and I really hated the way they spoke to people.

So yes, really pissed at what happened today. 

 

Also, can anyone verify if it is compulsory to buy the card holder? I damn beh song because I felt like I just got robbed (though it's only RM 1 lah.)!

Honour and Honesty.

Life's been a little busy lately and after some shit that hit on me, finally had time to sit down and express what I feel for the past few weeks.

Two words that start with the letter 'H'.

honour.

In the past, I've gone through times when someone told me something that seemed almost believable, you choose to believe him/her, and then BAM!

Broken promises. Empty words echoing at the back of your mind. You then become conscious about everything related to this person until you get sick of it and wave goodbye for good.

Experiences turned into the reasons to why I'm always bothered when people don't honour their words. Doesn't matter who, when or what, as long as one doesn't honour his/her words repetitively, I find it hard to move on in life with him or her because trust becomes an issue. So yeah, the past shaped me well and I try to honour what I say all the time.

Unfortunately, not everyone sees this as important because some can only imagine that the world revolves around them and nobody else matters. They see others' efforts as a stepping stone to achieve what they want. People just don't matter to them and they become so unappreciative that makes you want to smack some sense into their brains.

These are the people who have lost their integrity, and to a certain extent, their humanity. Beware though. Your success won't last because there are consequences to this. Karma will come.

honesty. 

You put up a good show, you get people to be part of the show which seemed all fair and square. When it's coming to an end, this isn't the real case.

It's only butterflies and rainbows on the outside. Deep inside, you're dark and selfish. You let people down. You let others believe in you until everything is a fucking lie.

So, it boils down to the question of how do you expect people to believe in you? To trust what your words this whole time? When trust is broken, you lose respect. You lose those who wanted to be a part of you. You use their faith in you to get the good out of it. Careful, this will crumble soon.

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For the past few weeks, there were scenarios like these that it seemed like they are on repeat. Different people, similar scenarios. They manipulate your goodwill to achieve their goals and when they're done with you, they just turn their backs away. They make you believe that it will happen, but what you didn't know was that decision has been made long before.

Unfortunately, my hands are tied. I can do nothing but to rant here. Secretly wishing that karma hits them, and it hits them hard.

There are only things to learn out of this:

• Take cautious steps before it hits. 
• Get proof points. 
• Compile whatever you can to make sure your ass is covered. 
• Be smart about life.

So, for those who made my life difficult these few weeks, fuck thank you. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to grow a little faster. Thank you for letting me down just so I bounce back to reality quicker than you think I can ever be.

Again, 

photo courtesy of Pinterest.

So, want to work in an agency?

Oh shit. Just realised that it's been almost a month since my last post. Heh. Been busy trying to get hold of my new job at another PR agency. It's been great so far - great colleagues, great working environment, decent workload (shall not jinx this)!

Of course, there will always be the good and bad side no matter where you work, especially if you're working in an agency. Going from my previous experience, I realised that I've matured quite a bit in terms of learning how to handle stress and well... ridiculousness sometimes. It's the same ol' same ol' so far and here are a few similarities:-

1. So much work, how lah? 

How?! Working in an agency means you have to always keep this in mind - workload is heavier as you work with different parties all the time. Everyone has demands and KPIs to meet, hence, the workload and ultimately, pressuring you to work for them as though they're your only client. So if that's the case, be organised lor. Don't put off your work and if you know you have an event coming up, plan at least a month earlier with all the timeline and stick to the damn deadlines! 

2. You make no sense, sometimes...or most of the time.

Nobody gives a fuck on what's right or wrong when it comes to the way things are being done because everything boils down to own KPIs (I call this selfishness but let's leave it as it is). If you're not familiar with the industry, you basically don't know how things work. Truth is, everyone will always think they know everything inside out, especially those who are extremely hard headed. So when someone makes no sense, please freaking educate them like they're toddlers. After all, you're in an agency - you're supposed to consult. So yes, EDUCATE. 

3. You work for me, just because I pay a monthly fee to your agency. 

They say customers' always right. In this case, it seems like the client's always "right". Some are so authoritative that they want you to follow whatever they demand for, even if you know clearly it's wrong. Again, you're in an agency so if you feel this isn't right, try to talk some sense with them and reiterate your points a few more times (hopefully the information enters and sticks in their heads). At the end of the day, you should do what's best for the clients. Don't just blindly follow their orders and meet their tight deadlines while they are enjoying their lives. You need a life too! Always, always, think of this as a partnership rather than being the employees to them. 

4. Calm your tits yo. 

Everyone has their bad days so if things don't go your way, take a chill pill. Try to think of solutions and work it out. Don't whine. You can even make a joke out of their ridiculousness. Most of all, solve the problem and show them your expertise. I am not the best when it comes to calming my nerves down but I have learnt (and still learning) on how to handle unnecessary bullshit. On rare occasions, I choose to ignore entirely and just go berserk, like... "fuck this shit, I will do it my way to prove you wrong." So if really doesn't work out in the end, take it as a valuable lesson instead of being so down about it. 

Despite all these, I really love what I'm doing right now cause it's always challenging. No doubt, working in agencies are the best ways to get a grasp of everything quickly but do consider these situations that you'll face. Also, if you're not the most efficient person in the world and you can't handle crap, please think thrice to avoid giving problems to yourself, colleagues and even the clients!

Okay done, finish sharing what I want to share for the night already. Goodnight. :)

P.S. In the event it feels like I'm talking about you, perhaps you can consider changing for the better, though this is purely my personal opinion. Jangan terasa ya. :)

*Photos courtesy of Google images.

Trust.

;It simply means "firm belief in the reliability, truth, or ability of someone or something."

At least, that's according to Google. or anywhere else. 

In my context, it is more than just that definition. To me, trust brings an important meaning in life. It somehow interlinks with any other things - Humans, feelings, situations, you and I. 

It is not something that I could have taken it less seriously. In fact, the word plays such an important role to me that when something happens, it can just crumple me in seconds.  

I chose to believe and to trust different people who have come in and out of my life. These almost lead me to nowhere. Nowhere but the feeling of getting hurt, paranoia and negativity. 

Then again, it allowed me to learn from the beginning whenever it's coming to an end. I would keep telling myself to keep the faith, this is just another test, a random challenge to see how far we can go in life. 

When I finally gathered all the courage to take the steps again, the whole scenario will hit a replay button. Then, I break apart. 

I question myself; How tough would it be to be a little more honest, to learn how to say no, to remember what you've told someone else and not act otherwise? Perhaps, its the situation around you that changes you? I tried to understand what may come. Creating the answers to all of the questions. 

Unfortunately, I failed. 

I failed to see from a third person's perspective, to be in the person's shoes, to judge what I could have done that the other couldn't. Am I really this insecure or I'm too self-absorbed with myself?

Was I really wrong to choose to trust someone and putting all of my faith on a gambling line? Was I so blind to see for myself that nobody can be trusted except yourself, even if words sounded promising?

Oh, silly, silly me. To think that there will be someone trustworthy out there somewhere. What a fool. 

Perhaps, it's time to wake up from the sweet nothings and dive back into reality, where you clearly know that words are merely words. 

They mean nothing, not even if priorities have been set straight a long time ago. 

As for this, it will serve as a reminder to self, always. 

Dealing with Homo-sapiens.

Finally entering the last month of 2014 - which also marks my 10th month being in the working world. 

This may sound really random but I've to say this - it has been a real challenge, especially when it's not like you can tell someone to buzz off just because you don't like how everything's being done. It may not sound like how doctors save the lives of millions or police forces chasing after those who have committed crime. But yeah, my life is all about dealing with people.

Sounds easy because it doesn't involve as much technical skills as engineers? Oh no, it isn't at all! Every individual I've met carries themselves differently. Some are plainly nice; some are always with a hidden agenda; some wouldn't give two shits about what's going on until they get into trouble; some demand for more and the more you give, the more they think it's not enough.

My job requires me to be the middle person of both sides which requires me to liaise with people internally and externally (duh!). Every party has different expectations and I will need to manage them, to ensure all will be contented with the outcomes.

I really don't mind working my ass off since it's my passion but some just enjoys testing my patience. It would be fine if people are understanding enough to know that they are not the only one that you deal with, but some are just plain pushy. Thinking they own everything and wants more out of it yadah-yadah, which is really a selfish mindset. Well, I hope you get my point.

Then again, not sure if this is my destiny or a path that I've chosen from the start. In fact, no matter how much you dislike them, it's pretty impossible to walk away from them because it's part of the job scope. The only way for me to be able to deal with all these - it will take a lot of time, patience and a strong, logical personality to deny their ridiculous requests.

Enough with the rants now, I just hope I can remain my sanity till the end of it. After all, it's a new day all over again. :)